Hello my followers and random readers! 🙂
Well….not a lot has changed haha. I still am dealing with my large wound, though it is a lot smaller. yay! I’m on a PICO which is like a mini wound vac…but not. It’s about the size of an old-school pager and fits in my pocket. The yucky stuff just gets sucked into a dressing. The nice bit is, nurses are only coming twice a week.
Sucks that I still can’t drive though. boooooo! The weather here in England has been super nice lately and I would love nothing more than to take a drive, alone, windows down and music up. It’s just not the same with the hubs driving lol. He talks…A LOT! lol
The weight is still going down (as it should lol) And I will attach a new comparison pic at the bottom of this post.
I’m struggling mentally though. It’s not depression…..it’s more like identity confusion. Like, who the hell am I and how do I fit into this crazy world I have never really been a part of? So, I think I’m going to ask for a referral to some counselling. I found a place that deals with bariatric patients in my area. I just can’t really explain what my head is doing! I haven’t been this weight (380) since I was 13/14….and at that point in my life I was an awkward lost teenager…..and I kinda feel like I’m slipping back into that confusion. So instead of trying to figure it out myself, I am going to seek help. I keep eating things I have no desire for….I don’t want it, it doesn’t taste good, it’s bad for me and yet I still eat it. My brain is trying to sabotage me, so I need to sort this sooner, rather than later. I WILL DO THIS!!!!
Had a check up on the 27th of May and my team is super impressed with my progress, so its not like I’m failing, just more like flailing about like a fish out of water. I see the team again on the 20th of June and I should know if my blood tests came back normal. Post-DS the whole vitamin situation can be confusing, so I am curious to see where my levels are and if anything needs tweaking.
Life is pretty good 🙂 Hope things are going well for you too!