A Conversation with Myself

I am a post opper. VSG Aug 2010. I am a preopper, DS soon TBA. Sorry if the tenses in this post change…it seriously was like I was having a convo with myself, lol.

Having the DS in two stages is not ideal, but it is what it is. I CAN use the experience of my VSG and apply the lessons learned.

1.) My journey is my own (no one will ever understand what its like to be ME…or YOU!)

2.) Very few people over 640lbs go down this route and live through it

3.) Others, if they had to walk in my shoes might have done better, but also may have done a lot worse

4.) Do NOT rate success on lbs lost

5.) Do NOT rate success on the mirror image

6.) For the love of God do NOT “try” things just because others are….utilise the magic window to it’s fullest!

7.) Remember what life was like at 644lbs, remember it GOOD and vow never ever to repeat it!

8.) Refuse to feel bad when looking at people who lost 100lbs and are at goal. There is a way to be happy for them without bashing yourself!

9.) Do NOT worry about other people (ie husband) if they say they support you and their actions back that up, TRUST them.

10.) If said people in your life do not deal with your changes, deal with it. Fix it, heal it, or close the chapter. Do NOT compromise your dreams because you fear rejection

11.) Take protein into the hospital. Those bastards nearly killed me last time! 3 weeks with 0 protein does NOT do the body any sort of good!

12.) Fight. If you want it, fight. Cry first if you must, but once the well runs dry FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!

13.) Watch out for the fakers, takers and under cover saboteurs

14.) 35 is still pretty young, it is not too late to do anything, the world in my oyster

15.) I will NOT be ashamed if I mess up AS LONG AS I ADMIT IT and FIX IT!

16.) Do NOT get comfy….ever. Vits, Protein, Labs are vital to life, feeling good in the moment does not mean you will feel good tomorrow and by them you might be in serious trouble…be PROACTIVE, not reactive!

17.) Never, EVER become a mean skinny girl. No memes, no jokes, no anti fat attitudes. I am NOT better than anyone, I just got lucky.

18.) I accept that I will be super lucky ever to get below 250lbs, acceptance does not render hope useless.

19.) Learn and teach what you learn. Put it out there. Teach, do NOT preach!

20.) Every breath is a blessing. Thin people die. Althetes die. Rich people die. Accidents happen. Fat people die. Young people die. We all die at some time….and we never know “WHEN”, we can only do our best to prolong our time.

I am already a success. I see it in peoples eyes when they see my before pics, I see it in family and friends eyes whom I haven’t seen in a long time. I see it in my face. It’s the little things that make me a success, but it’s not my time yet to stop trying to do better.

I hope the DS will help me lose another 200lbs. I will NOT be disappointed if I only lose 150, but I know how stubborn I am. How many sleevers are still losing (albiet slowly) 3 years out? This is when regain happens for most.

You got this girl. You WILL live through it. You WILL continue to improve your health and dammit you WILL get new hips and your apronectomy!

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2 Responses to A Conversation with Myself

  1. Great post! Keep up the good work! You can do it! πŸ™‚


  2. Thanks πŸ™‚ I can do it…just need several years haha πŸ™‚


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