Ok, I need to address something. Some people think weight loss surgery is the “easy” way out. I know in my case, it was the ONLY way out of immobility. I am now down to 478…thats only like 21lbs gone since Jan, and thats ok with me. It’s going slower because I can eat more now an am struggling a bit with my eating disorder. I am reading a really good book though that is straightening out my mind. “The Life You Want” by Bob Greene (yes, Oprahs trainer!) It’s a fab book and talks A LOT about not feeling shame or worthlessness. It’s fantastic and I cannot recommend it enough.
i have serious head issues when it comes to food. It started really young and they are deeply ingrained in my psyche. I will beat this, but it’s going to be long, hard and slow going. I’m ok with that. I need to focus less on the control side of things and more into the why’s of it all. By reading this book, I have found out a lot about myself and how I think and feel. i have a lot of negative self talk going on…and Im learning (slowly) to over write it. But it is definitely NOT easy. I wouldn’t change it for the world though. My life is so much better because of WLS.