Life has been pretty good for me. Trying to figure out things. I’ve been on like 8 diets since the beginning of 2010 and I have finally said fuck dieting. It doesn’t work anyhow. Instead I am using hypnotherapy by Paul McKenna who helps you understand intuitive eating. I am combining his stuff with Health at Every Size and there you have it. I’m just eating what I actually want, when I want it, but I’m only eating enough to be satisfied. For the first time in….ever…I am leaving stuff on my plate and throwing things away. It’s weird, but kinda cool.
I have also made some decisions about WLS. I am only going to do the first half of the DS. I’m going to just have the sleeve gastrectomy and see where that takes me. I will be perfectly happy as a 350lbs person…so the ida of thinness doesn’t motivate me. And the more I think about it….the more I love my intestines as they are! It makes me happier to just think of myself with a small stomach. It also makes me happier to know I won’t have to deal with being thin (something I have never ever been). So instead I am getting comfortably with the idea of losing 50% of my body weight and staying there. Plus my hubby with still have something to play with 😉 Gotta love having an FA as a partner.